When I was watching the latest episode of Doctor Who (S09E05) last night, he said something that really stuck with me. “People talk about premonition like it’s something strange. It’s not. It’s just remembering in the wrong direction.”
It got me thinking about what I believe and don’t believe. When I gave up Christianity and came to the conclusion that God is probably not a thing, I decided to stop believing in EVERYTHING that wasn’t scientifically proven.
It’s been several years now and some things keep popping up that I don’t know how to deal with. “Spirituality”- How can you be spiritual if you are an atheist? Is there a better word for when you feel an absolute connection with nature and the universe? I have that feeling sometimes, when I work in my garden or when I watch the meteor showers.
Premonition is a very tough one to figure out. Back when Sylvia Browne and Jon Edwards were popular, I was a sheep and I believed it all to be real. It’s like Mulder’s poster, “I want to believe”. And I eventually found out it was all a scam. Just like religion. So I threw it in the bin of things to no longer believe.
So what do I do with the instances in my life where I personally had premonitions? There were a few very strong instances in my life where I knew what was going to happen or something was warning me about something that was going to happen. I know the normal explanation is “coincidence”. I call bullshit. These two events affected me deeply and I have never forgotten:
I had a dream one night, well really a nightmare. I was a young teenager at the time. I woke up sobbing and the memory of it did not fade as dreams usually do. A little girl was on her way home from school and stopped by a quick mart to look at the cheap jewelry on a rack. A man took her and locked her up under his garage. It didn’t make sense to me at the time, but she was under the fucking garage. I told my mom about the dream and I was upset and out of sorts for 2-3 days. I kept thinking about the poor girl under the garage. Then it came out in the news that a missing girl in PA or NY had been recovered alive- she was last seen at a neighborhood quick mart. They found her locked up in a bunker under a garage, kidnapped by a pedophile. I felt such relief, but so upset that I knew and I couldn’t do anything to help her. Is this premonition? What is this?
The other instance is something creepy that has an explanation, kinda. I’ve read that it could be part of OCD or something. When I google, a bunch of hooey numerology and angel numbers comes up. Maybe someone better educated can clue me in.
Here it is:
Six months before the Twin Towers fell, I kept seeing 9:11 on my clocks. I would see it out in public on clocks. It was every day just about for six months. I was so upset by it, I put black tape over the digital readout on my stove and VCR. I tried and tried not to look at any clocks after the second month of this. It was torturous and I thought I was losing my mind. It finally stopped and then a few weeks later, it was September 11, 2001. Is this premonition? WTF is this and how do I file it away in my head?
Deja vu happens to me frequently and always has. It makes me think of timelines and other dimensions! This particular memory brings up thoughts of reincarnation.
The strongest moment of Deja vu I will never forget: I was 15 years old, on a church group tour with my grandmother, visiting Norway, Sweden, and Denmark. We were in a very old hotel far north in Norway, surrounded by countryside. I sneaked out the back door after breakfast to have a smoke. The view of the hills, the ponies, the old wood fencing, the misty morning, all of it- slammed through my being and I felt as if I were HOME. After the initial feeling of joy and belonging, fear and confusion took over. WTF was that about?? Cell memory? According to 23 and Me, I am 3.9 % Scandinavian. So I have some DNA there…
Update 12/5/2016 Just saw this article: http://www.lifecoachcode.com/2016/10/05/collective-consciousness-predicts-big-events-before-happening/
I had heard of this concept back when the tsunami in the Indian Ocean happened.
Update 6/11/2017 Just saw this great video on Ted-Ed about Deja vu https://youtu.be/foVMwJtlR5s
Update 5/20/2018 I just read this article that could explain my strange feelings when I took in the view of those hills… It’s called Stendhal Syndrome. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/in-excess/201403/having-art-attack
P.S. if you are interested in finding out your DNA origins, click here. 23 And Me